I can’t only do cosmic tantric surrendered love making
and I can’t only do embodied kinky mindless fucking.
I need both, based on my mood.
And you’re allowed to, too…
I knew this mentally of course,
as I am primarily an energetic + shapeshifter erotic blueprint… but it all came in to fully feel…
let me tell you…
Yesterday, our absolutely delicious
led to me
BALLING MY EYES OUT
for a good 10 minutes.
I realized in that moment…
after lose-yourself-in-eachother and complete rapture sex… that for over 2 weeks..
I was hush hushing the part of myself
dirty, kinky, all over the place, sweaty, fun, playful sex..
We were going so deep, loving, tantric,
but then I noticed that
started to judge
the other kind of sex
that feels like erotic worship
God to Goddess.
sweat-full surrender in rapture
Noticing: some spiritual/sexual + tantric teachings can start taking on a little of this mentality.
Like its THE ONLY WAY.
Ever happened to you?
You start one practice…
and then its like automatically
go to shit.
I did this to myself, I realized
in that moment
because nobody stops
I caught myself saying “Shhhh”
when he goes “I love you”
while we were entangled in sweat
and sensual seductive thrusting
And yes, I will trust this voice of mine.
I won’t silence my truth for what sounds like love because what is love is truth of the moment not the mind.
Shhhhhh just fuck me
Shhhhhh just show me
you love me
by thrusting harder
NEED IT ALL.
And you get to, too… truly.. your sex life
gets to be
everything you want
trust your desires
and never stop learning
your body and his.
There is no need
to put yourself
in a box.
and it’s waiting