I’d just changed my outfit for the party. Silk skirt, black and pink bra, and a see-through cover.
“Does this look good?” I asked him.
“100% Yes. I love it.”
And yet, I find myself getting ready to walk out of the room to check in the mirror.
“No”, he says… “I want you to trust me. You look beautiful. I love this outfit. No checking.”
Everything in me wanted to squirm!
Because what if it’s really not great?!
What if I look in the mirror later and feel silly?
Surely, I felt all of my resistance to leave the mirror alone.
But then a breath.. into surrender…
Because this is exactly how I like it.
I think to myself…
“I may not know how I look tonight, but the energy between us right now… this is all I’m ever after anyways….”
And I feel sexy.. in his direction.
I feel sexy… letting him lead me.
I feel sexy… trusting.
Of course, this is a really romantic example of his leadership… but I assure you… there are all of the truly squirmy ones, too.
I know what a big deal it is to follow someone online. (After so many sprints of deleting everyone!) The energy is coming through to you every day unannounced, programming your consciousness. My devotion? To bring it raw, real, alive, and full. Never from obligation.